Some things I have Learned...

I’ve learned- that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something. I’ve learned-that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.
I’ve learned-that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I’ve learned-that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I’ve learned-that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.It may be the last time you see them.
I’ve learned-that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.
I’ve learned-that we are responsible for what we do,no matter how we feel.
I’ve learned-that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish.Few things are more humiliating,and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I’ve learned-that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I’ve Learned-that everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.
I’ve Learned-that opportunities are never lost.Someome else will take the ones you miss.
I’ve Learned-that when you plan to get even with someone,you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I’ve Learned-that under everyone’s hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
I’ve Learned-that it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
I’ve Learned-that money doesn’t buy class.
I’ve Learned-that sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.
I’ve Learned-that being kind is more importantthan being right.
I’ve Learned-that the less time I have to work with,the more I get done.
I’ve Learned-It is best to give advice in only two circumstances;when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.
I’ve Learned-that when you harbor bitterness,happiness will dock elsewhere.
I’ve Learned-that just one person saying,“You’ve made my day!”makes my day.

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back.

I’ve learned-that you cannot make someone love  you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned- that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.
I’ve learned-that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned-that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

Let Me love again...

This years valentines day really got me thinking, as to why I am still thinking :)
I guess I didnt ever really think about relationships and others, it could be the one who hasnt found the right one and been single for over 9 years, the one who was in love, and their love died, the one who is accidently in love, or the one who is so afraid of love she wont put herself out there...Hmm all of those are someone I know. I guess this whole love thing has me thinking, is it really worth it? you put yourself out there, but will someone accept you---or down right reject you. If they accept you, how can you be sure they are true, to you, and only you?

These are things that have made me the one who wont put myself out there. I have been in what i thought was love- and it was a lie, and going through that again...scares the living shit right outta me. Why is it that it has to be this hard?  why cant someone just want to be with you for..well you? not what they think they can make you, or what they believe you are...just you.

I guess these are just things that are constantly going through my head. Should I or shouldnt I..let someone in, throw myself out there, love again?

The arms of love encompass you with your present, your past, your future, the arms of love gather you together.  ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Anything to Make you Smile

Hmm today was one of those interesting kind of days. I got to see my parents and eat lunch with them, and bond very well with my roomate today. I actually had to work  even though it was my day off. It was a great day didnt do anything at all but watch movies with the kids. But it gave me time to sit and think about the dream that I had last night.

Last Night I had this dream that I was in my room, and I had tile ceiling. There was for some reason a bathroom above my room, well it must have overflowed, cuz the tile strarted to crack and then everything from the overflowing toilet was in my room. it was so gross. There was feces all over my room. This is something that I dont understand, does that mean I have a lot of shit going on in my life and Im at the top? or what does this mean. Soo..I did a little research and found this:

Feces

*To see or come in contact with feces, signifies aspects of yourself that are dirty and negative and which you believe to be undesirable and repulsive. You need to acknowledge and express these feelings, even though it may be shameful. Release the negativity in your life. Alternatively, it may also refer to someone who is anal retentive.

*To dream that you are unable to dispose of the feces, suggests that you are unwilling to let go of your emotions. You have a tendency to hold in and keep your feelings to yourself.

*According to Freud, feces is related to possession, pride, shame, money/financial matters, or aggressive acts. So to dream that you are playing with feces, symbolizes your anxiety over money matters and financial security. 

I dont know if any of these really fit my dream, but I do see the money and finical part, due to the fact that I worry about it all the time. And it could be that I am very negative about myself a lot of the time. I would rather get a shot, than a compliment (and I hate needles!) So I guess this gives me some things I need to work on, I need to love myself...much more, and Know that its money- they make more of it tomorrow.

Have A Lovely Sunday:

Think about all the beauty still left around you, and be happy- Ann Frank

Lace you your shoes

I have been MIA for a few days, but with all the birthday celebration, I got a second wind. I realized on the 17th how much I do have going for me I guess I could say. I was mad at first that I had to work on my birthday, but the kids were a lot of fun. Most of them told me multiple times happy birthday and gave me lots of hugs.

Today is the day I get to spend it all with my best friend and celebrate my birthday- along with my roommates birthday! things might get a little nuts. I guess the last few day i realized what I am greatful for- friends. Gosh, I dont even know where to start. Friends can replace your family, when they are far away, and with friends you get to choose them :) I am struggling with this, because for awhile I didnt realize what I had, and I felt that I had taken advantage of that.
So now I start my card writing to everyone and anyone that I love- I love mail!!! Eeveryone loves mail, except bills :)

I shall be done with my rant, and leave my daily quote :)

And I’m sorry if I haven’t written to you in a while. It’s just that life gets in the way of living. It’s just that my fingers were stuck together. It’s just that all the paper in the world caught fire.
You’ll forgive me if I haven’t written in a while. It’s just that all the envelopes made love to dragonflies and now, we cannot bring them down. It’s just that time stopped ticking. It’s just that all the ink ran clear.
My apologies if I haven’t written in a while. It’s just that words ran out of letters (these are the last in the bag). It’s just that language isn’t perfect. It’s just, me....

<3 B

who are you- when I'm not looking

After Reading Cait's blog it really made me think.I use to be just like that always apoligizing for everything, but why? Why should I have to apologize for being me. I guess this blog is about how much people will change for others. I mean we all know how someone acts when they are around us, do they act different when they are around someone else?

 I guess, I try to always be me, but at times it can be so hard. You may not want to say something that hurts another feelings. But I see it, as long as you are saying it with love, and the intent to not hurt them- then it is the right thing you are doing. I always try to keep that in mind when I do say something to people, I dont want to do it and hurt them.

I love this song, it makes me smile.

I guess I think about this a lot, because of the fact that the world is every changing and there arent many honest people that are left in this world.

I love my roomie she said it perfect- I'm just keeping it real, Keeping it honest-No you are keeping it asshole...There is a difference between being honest and being an ass

Love waits for one thing, the right moment.

I decided I was going to Skip a Vday blog, all because I was spending the Day doing me! It would have been a decent Valentines day, if a kid at work didnt decide to kick me in the face. At least a coworker made me laugh, He musta been heels over head for me. LOl. Its the little things like that, they make me smile.

I was thinking about how at girls night we made the 11:11 wishes, so far there hasnt been anything coming with me, but like the blog title says- love waits for one thing- the right moment. My mom keeps telling me that you need to ask for some assistance. She believes that god has a man picked out for me, but I should be able to put in some input. She told me to make a list of the 12 items that I want for a man, and to ask god to take these into consideration. No offense I have thought it was a little insane, but the more I think about it, maybe its not such a bad idea. heres a couple that I have decided that I would really like in a man:

1. Sense of humor- not just any, but one that is pretty similar to the same one as mine.
2. I want a gentle lion- someone who is compassionate and caring, but can keep an handle on me.
3. Taller- Yea yea height is superficial, but, I would like to feel small against someone.
4. Eyes- pretty pretty ones, eyes make me smile :)


Don't make decisions when you are angry, Don't make promises when you are happy.

Missing My papa today, wishing you wouldnt have decided to leave this earth. Feb. 15th 1995

Ben's Secret

This week has been so hectic..I havent had much time to blog. I finally got the GRE done..and found some cruddy news about a friend, which im struggling to still deal with. And the fact that I do social work, and get in arguments, along with physical altercations, kept me from getting my job I wanted.
All of this was forgotten in a matter of moments, thanks to girls night last night. I had so much fun with 2 of my favorite ladies. It was simple fun. I think the bartenders loved us..or maybe hated us. I wont go much more than, having god old fashioned fun with girls, is what you need to let go.

'Friends.' A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is one of the greatest things in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

I should be worried that again I dnot have a valentine, but I am blessed with the joy of friends instead

Dear Thursday- you are cold. go away

Hmmp. Thursday. Two days before my big test...and I have given up on studying. I have so much stress that is on me because of this test, its making everything more complicated. Working with kids everyday that need people to show them things, wears on you. I love my job, but at times you think I could see the signs on other people. I mean when a friend is in need I would do anything for them...but what if you are stuck..and dont know where to go for help with them? It makes me wonder and think back to when i use to not know what i was doing with my life...

after things got kinda bad my sophmore year of high school, i wanted nothing more than to not be in this world anymore, i wanted out. But I guess I sucked it up and went on...yea I had my share of thoughts and plans..but I didnt act on them..and I am happy that I didnt.

"When you arise every morning think of what a privilege it is to be alive, to think, to enjoy, to love...."-Marcus Aurelius

growing old at 23

So today was a good day at work :) cant really complain.. And I did my test so  I can have one of my old jobs back, after being laid off. Stinks though because I get such expensive taste when I work there, and always pick out my engagment ring. Which makes me really think, I will be 24 soon- gosh what have I done with my life?!..Im not serious with anyone, yea I have a degree and a  full time job, and just got myself a new(er) car...what else do I have to show..I decided to look back at a few things I have done.

1. I have biked pikes peak-so much fun!
2. Studied Rainforst in Costa Rica
3. Snorkled in the Caribbean off of Panama
4. back Packed Costa Rica
.....4 things really? thats all I have to show. It's kind of depressing I have all these things I want to do- I just wish I could. I know that within the next 10 years I would really like to

1. back pack Ireland- find my families castle
2. Go to Africa
3, Skydive
4. Explore Alaska

I guess I'm hitting a pre-pre mid life crisis? is that what this should be called, I am really unsure.

" A man can consider himself a succes if he wakes up in the morning, and goes to bed at night while in between he did exactly what he wanted".

I guess today would have been a succes, I made a client laugh until she almost cried.

Ice-1 Phone-0

So last night I was the nice sober driver, and I ate it on the snow- smashing my phone. I was pumped to start this blog and have it be positive..but its not. Rawr

" A pessimist sees the diffictuly in every oppertunity; an optimist sees oppertunity in every difficulty'- Winston Churchill.

I think this is perfect for me today. I have a lot on my plate, with Job oppertunities, and wanting to move. I think with my birthday coming up I am wanting to get myself another tattoo for my birthday. I have an idea, but do you have any?

I think that people that are inked are amazing. I believe that people who ink themselves are creative and want to share it with the world. I believe that the difference between people who have tattoos and those who dont,  is people with tattoos dont care if you have tattoos or not.  This post is the most random one I ever have...at least I hope

Happy sunday, wish my Jets were playing.

Trying Something New

So My friend started a blog on here thought I would see what it is all about. At this current time I should be studying for the GRE..but I guess a well needed break is ok for now. I take the test next weekend, am I ready---Hmm...maybe, maybe not I guess we will see. I have yet to know where I would like to go, but I guess get the test under my belt and it can go from there. Lately this has been the quote I have lived by

" Not all who wander are lost..."

I think this is the perfect quote for someones life. You may not always know where you are going to go, but that does not by any means, hint that you are lost. I think that not always knowing where you are going can be a blessing. When you plan every aspect of your life out- there is no time to be open to change. you have everything planned, then something great could come along..but you dont want to break plans.  We all have regrets, we all have things we wish we woulda, coulda, shoulda, done different. But there are always going to be those words of regret that we can't get out of our head. There is nothing we can do about it, this song fits my day perfectly.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btQKGvVRnZ8

Happy Saturday, Don't live a life of regret, say what you mean and mean what you say